Friday, December 31, 2010

Going Out On A High Note

Has it really been six months since my last post?! Well, time does fly!  It seems like just yesterday I was composing my last brilliant little ditty, but then it seems like just yesterday I was celebrating the coming of the new year with my husband and my grandmother, the latter worried that the world just might implode at the stroke of midnight as the year officially became 2000.  But it wasn't yesterday, it was over a decade ago...

Though the last decade of my life has been by far the best of the four (I am forty-ish) it has, of course, had it's ups and it's downs.  Raising nine children, seven of them having other mothers is not easy.  Neither is marriage, especially when it is a third for each of you, even when it (perhaps the marriage, certainly the husband) is by far the best thing that has ever happened to you.

 But it isn't so much the decade for me that is so notable, but the last year.  While 2009 was awful, 2010 couldn't have been better, and I am sad to see it go.

To compare, 2009 was full of illness, discontent and misery.  The loss of my health, the loss of a job, the loss of relationships,  and almost,  loss of myself in the process.

So it's no surprise that I was happy to see 2009 go.  In fact, looking back, I didn't throw a big enough party to escort 2009 on it's merry way and invite 2010 right on in.  I don't even think we stayed up past 9pm.

But I won't be celebrating this New Year.  I'm sad to see the old one go.  In 2010, I received so many blessings, and recognized so many that I had overlooked.  Let's count them.....I have acquainted myself with long forgotten priorities. In the process, I have regained some of my health.

My marriage is stronger than ever....

I have identified and tossed aside false friendships, and prioritized those that are true.  I have made new friends, and I have renewed some old friendships that mean so much to me.  I've (happily) seen good friends recover from serious illness and seriously sick relationships.  I've even been lucky enough to witness a little of "what goes around, come's around" and I'm ashamed to say I've enjoyed it (but not too much, I don't want it coming back around to me:).

I got the wonderful news that (finally) we can expect my niece to be adding to the size of our already huge family with a beautiful baby boy.  I sure don't miss my job and my stress level is lower.  I have more time for my family and friends.  Christmas, an event that usually has me frazzled and stressed,  was wonderful, although with one son too far away, and another so close, but yet still too far, it was still not quite perfect.

It seems I'm no longer Floundering, and my Mojo has been located.  Mission accomplished! I suppose I'll have to revise my profile, and even the title of my blog, and think of something else to blog about.  A new project...

No, I can't say I'm happy to see 2010 go, but I'll remember it fondly, while I welcome 2011, and trust that it will bring happiness as well.  After all, I'm bringing all those blessings from 2010 with me, and we have that new baby to look forward to!

Happy New Year everyone, it's going to be a great one, I can feel it.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Is it Love or is it Lust?

At first it's just a glance, you're looking around casually, and suddenly your interest is caught.  You stare, you can't help it, trying not to make it too obvious to those around you.  But your pulse quickens.  Maybe you look around to see if anyone notices that your heart is about to pound right out of your chest.

Your palms are sweaty.  You've been noticed. that goodMMMM...It's wonderful being noticed.  But have you been notice for the write right reasons?  Is it because you're making a spectacle of yourself?  Or is it because they are attracted to you?

Their words are like sweet nothings, whispered into your ear on a warm summers evening.  And you just can't get enough.  Even those that are not particularly eloquent are beautiful words because they were meant for you.  They have been whispered in your ear and you will remember them always.

But will they stick around for the long haul, or are they merely toying with your emotions.  Will this turn in to a lasting relationship, or is it to be what-bam-thank-you-mam.  Either way, you're so grateful for their attention, you're like a puppy dog.

So you take the next step and go on over to their place, and if your lucky, you have something in common.  You might even have a few laughs.  Or they might say something that touches your heart.  Sometimes you learn something new.  Sometimes, you realize that the lust you felt upon first sight has worn off, and while you like them well enough, it was not love at first sight, so you don't want to hang around. You don't even think you'll see them again.  And sometimes, (please no) they have made that decision about you.

Ah well, there are other fish in the sea.  You just have to get back out there.

Sound familiar?  Am I talking about blogging, or dating.  That feeling you get when you're checking your email and you notice one or two telling you that a comment has been left on your latest post?  Isn't it just like spotting that cutie in a bar, catching his/her eye?  Wondering if they really like you or just wanna hook up?  Okay, so I don't really remember much about dating.  But it sure seems similar to me!

This post was inspired by today's  fantastic and funny post by KJ at 12 paws and frogs (click here to check it out, you'll love it), and by all the lovely comments and new followers I've been lucky enough to get.  I appreciate all of you, you quicken my heart.  XOXOXO

And to those of you visiting my page, wondering  "should I stay or should I go?, I offer the romantic candlelight, wine, and the following little ditty:

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you can't turn around and say good-bye
all you know is when i'm with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me...
                               (Uncle Kracker)